Track 1 of 9
The album opener. A man in hiding — from God, from truth, from himself. He has built a shelter out of avoidance and control. The music feels claustrophobic, heavy, and still — like being trapped in something you chose. This is the moment before awakening — the last night in the old self.
Dark, heavy, claustrophobic, atmospheric alternative rock. 75-85 BPM.
Lyrics
[Verse 1]
I drew the curtains years ago
Sealed the cracks where light would show
Built these walls with steady hands
Made a kingdom no one understands
The dark became a friend of mine
Comfortable and undefined
[Pre-Chorus]
But something knocks
Something pulls the thread
Something whispers through the words I said
I hear it now but I don't move
I've got too much comfortable to lose
[Chorus]
I built this hideaway
With my own hands
Brick by brick I shut the light out
I built this hideaway
Where no one stands
Brick by brick until I can't get out
[Verse 2]
The silence used to feel like peace
Now it sounds like slow disease
I told myself I chose this place
But I can't remember my own face
The knocking's louder every night
And I'm afraid it might be right
[Pre-Chorus]
Still something knocks
Still something pulls the thread
Still something whispers through the words I said
I hear it now and I can't move
I've got too much to face if I break through
[Chorus]
I built this hideaway
With my own hands
Brick by brick I shut the light out
I built this hideaway
Where no one stands
Brick by brick until I can't get out
[Bridge]
What if the door was never locked
What if I only had to knock
What if the light I shut away
Has been waiting for me every day
[Final Chorus]
I built this hideaway
With my own hands
Brick by brick I shut the light out
I built this hideaway
Where no one stands
Brick by brick
But I want out